19 aug. 2011

Ganduri in luna lui gustar .


Ora 18:23, vineri. Masina, mana in berea stanga, mana dreapta pe geam, incercand sa prind aerul. Aerosmith - Crazy pe repeat. Nu ma gandesc la nimic, in afara de mine. Incercand sa prind aerul am realizat ca la fel e si cu iubirea unei anumite persoane, cu cat incerci sa o prinzi mai repede si mai strans, cu atat iti aluneca printre degete mai repede. Asta a fost primul meu gand cand faceam lucrul asta. In dreapta mea e soarele care se duce la culcare asa incet, vazand asta mi-a trecut alt gand prin cap...apusul care il vad eu,il vede toata lumea, inclusiv EL.
Ma gandeam astazi, asa pe drum, molesita cum eram... ca inainte sa fie iubitul meu, il visam in fiecare seara, apoi cat timp a fost iubitul meu nu l-am visat deloc, iar in cele din urma, dupa ce nu a mai fost iubitul meu, am inceput din nou sa il visez. De ce? ... Pentru ca imi traiam visul. Inchei, ma duc la o bere, ma duc sa zambesc fals cum o fac de ceva timp, si sa ma prefac ca am parte de distractie. Da stiu, i'm a fag. Nu e nevoie sa citeasca nimeni, postul de azi e pentru mine, sa il citesc peste ceva vreme si sa rad.

14 aug. 2011

Me and .... you. (once)

.. i wanna play hide and seek, and give you my clothes, tell you i love you shoes and sit on the steps while you take a bath, and massage your neck and kiss your face, and hold your hand and go for a walk. Not mind when u eat my food. And meet you at Rudy's, and talk about  your day.. and laugh of my.. PARANOIA.And give u tapes that you don't listen to. Watch great films, and tell you about the tv program i saw the night before and not laugh at your jokes.
Want u in the morning, but let u sleep in for a while. Tell u how much i love your eyes, your lips, your neck. I sit on the steps smokin' till you come  home, and worry when u're late, and be amazed when you're early.Go to a party and dance, be sorry when i'm wrong, and happy when you forgive me, look at your photos, wish i knowned you forever.Hearing your voice in my ear, feel your skin on my skin.
And get scared when you're angry. I tell you you're gorgeous, and hug u when you're anxious, and hold u when u hurt... want u when i smell you, offend u when i touch u, and whimper when  i;m next to you, and whimper when i;m not. Smother you in the night and get cold when u take the blanket and hot when u don't, melt when u smile, dissolve when u laugh. And not understand how u think i'm rejecting you, when i;m not rejecting you.. and wonder who you are.. but i accept you anyway. And tell u about the tree angel, who flew across the ocean, because he loved me.
I wonder the city, thinking... it's empty without you. But i want what  u want, and think.. i'm loosing myself. But i'll tell u the worst of me, and try to give u the best of me, because u don;t deserve any less. And think it's all over,hang on.. for just ten minutes, before u throw me out of your life. Forget who i am, and let me try to get closer to you. And somehow...communicate some of the overwhelming,undying, overpowering, unconditional, heart enriching, mind expanding, ongoing, neverending LOVE... i have for you.